Me, the secret admirer

There are lotsa memories flashing in my mind tonight
I remember every word, every joke that he said to me
I know it means nothing to him but I used to recall the conversation between us every night before sleep
hoping that I will not forget any part of that wonderful moments
well, it was wonderful to me

I used to feel that he treated me differently from other girls
so I allowed my feelings for him to develop
until a certain point where I stopped myself
because
the more I get to know him, the more I know I am not good enough for him
it was the first time I felt like this
he is Mr. Perfect while I am just a girl
with normal life, normal look, normal thinking and normal everything

A guy like him will eventually meet someone who is as perfect as he is
someone who is beautiful, intelligent and understanding
and the story will end with Happily-Ever-After

this is the first time I pen down my feelings for him
there is a reason why I am not afraid of revealing my secrets now
I know, even if he sees this, we won't be meeting each other for at least 6 to 7 months

hope he is doing great in a far far away land

依赖感情的我们

女人常抱怨另一半的恶习，性格，态度，思想
为什么抱怨了那么多，两个人还是在一起？

是因为害怕孤独

身边有个人总好过孤零零一个人

看电影，吃晚餐，等巴士...

勉强地把自己困在那个跟自己理想伴侣条件差距很大的人的身边

又或者硬凑自己和另一个有一点好感却不是有感觉的人

结局会是如何？