心情日记

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

变成叹息的爱情

有时我会不服气
总是差一点点运气
曾经小心呵护的爱情
最后还是变成了叹息

为了幸福认真努力
付出一百分的自己
我还打算把最好的爱给你
却已经来不及
遗憾的是
我不在你的心里

就算是爱对我多不公平

受伤了也会痊愈

有时会安慰我自己
单身也是一种福气
去旅行，看电影，天晴，下雨
再高兴也只有我自己

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

There are lotsa memories flashing in my mind tonight
I remember every word, every joke that he said to me
I know it means nothing to him but I used to recall the conversation between us every night before sleep
hoping that I will not forget any part of that wonderful moments
well, it was wonderful to me

I used to feel that he treated me differently from other girls
so I allowed my feelings for him to develop
until a certain point where I stopped myself
because
the more I get to know him, the more I know I am not good enough for him
it was the first time I felt like this
he is Mr. Perfect while I am just a girl
with normal life, normal look, normal thinking and normal everything

A guy like him will eventually meet someone who is as perfect as he is
someone who is beautiful, intelligent and understanding
and the story will end with Happily-Ever-After

this is the first time I pen down my feelings for him
there is a reason why I am not afraid of revealing my secrets now
I know, even if he sees this, we won't be meeting each other for at least 6 to 7 months

hope he is doing great in a far far away land

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

依赖感情的我们

女人常抱怨另一半的恶习，性格，态度，思想
为什么抱怨了那么多，两个人还是在一起？

是因为害怕孤独

身边有个人总好过孤零零一个人

看电影，吃晚餐，等巴士...

勉强地把自己困在那个跟自己理想伴侣条件差距很大的人的身边

又或者硬凑自己和另一个有一点好感却不是有感觉的人

结局会是如何？

Saturday, December 11, 2010

小时候

在家赖着没事干，就会被阿爸叫去收拾这里收拾那里

收拾堆积很多年的废物或“宝物”

要丢还是要留,自己决定

我酱大了嘛

收着收着，竟然挖到宝耶！

现在看戏是用laptop,hard disk,DVD

以前我小时候是用hard disk 的始祖 磁片卡带 的勒^.^

看着卡带，回忆不断涌上来

最喜欢的几部电影

Little Mermaid, Snow White, Cinderella, The Sound of Music, Beauty and the Beast

我不舍得把这些卡带丢掉，所以收起来

几年以后我肯定又会很兴奋地看着卡带回忆自己的童年

当天，妈妈也在收拾她的东西

突然她大笑，因为她发现了两张生日卡

这是我和妹一起画的
我们怕死没有人懂这是一张生日卡
所以注明了这是 “Birthday Kad”
马来文和英文分不清楚

让我解释，不然你们会看不懂
左上角是一个蛋糕，
右上角是阿爸和阿妈，中间有颗爱心（我画的）
你没看错，中间又画了阿爸和阿妈（妹画的）
还画了我们三兄妹

鬼画符似的签名

左边的是我妹，右边是我

还有另一张，四个字形容：色彩缤纷

这张应该也是我们两姐妹的杰作

哇劳，我以前的字有够丑！！！艺术天份也差到~~~~~ -.-lll

不要问我什么是“长身到老”，我真的不懂

画的爱心一点也不像爱心，

哎，有心就好，对吗？？

很感动一下，妈妈收藏了那么久

一个下午，小时候的回忆都回来了

Thursday, December 9, 2010

I'm lost

Why am I feeling so lost now?
I can't stop thinking about my results, academic plan and future
I am not sure about everything
I am no longer confident in my own decision
The sense of insecurity makes me worry

I realized how shallow my mind is, whole time living in my own small little world

worrying about nothing other than my grades and what I gonna have for lunch
I am ashamed of myself, not proud to be me anymore